I am here

Twin Peaks is happening again.

I am a big fan, I even spent £20 on a Twin Peaks board game, but let’s just say it is a bit depressing to play.

The thing is whenever there is something I am looking forward to that is years away in the future-like Season 3 of Twin Peaks was at one point-there is a little part of me that thinks ‘I hope I am still alive then’.

I don’t mean that in a suicidal way, what I mean is ever since I lost a close friend to Leukaemia at the age of 10 I have realised that life is precious and that there is no guarantee I will live to see a grand old age.

I view life much like how I imagine a soldier in World War 1 would have. I might make it to the end, but the odds are stacked against me.

But for now I am here, ready to enjoy Twin Peaks, ready to enjoy the latest WWE Pay Per View, ready to enjoy the highs that life has to offer me and manage the lows that come my way.

My mental health is currently the lowest it has been all year, probably longer, but I am still capable of enjoying the good moments. I think my problems will pass.

I am here. So many aren’t. I am lucky.

Published by flodebtfreediary

Hello, I write about food, debt, saving money, mental health and social anxiety.

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