I have the self esteem of a grape, easily crushed

Today I had it confirmed that my contract isn’t going to be extended.

I left work early to focus on a job application, but my heart isn’t in it.

I have lost all confidence in my abilities to work.

I said to the boy ‘See, I told you I’d lose my job, you didn’t believe me, you said I was paranoid. I told you I was useless and incompetent.’

My worry is I will apply for a job and trick people into hiring me when I am nothing but worthless.

I am on the descent to Christmas and I don’t know where I will be working in 6 weeks time.