Where Am I Now?

A long time has passed since I last posted on here. I last posted in early February 2019. Back in 2019 when I last posted I had £4275 of debt. I was working 2 insecure jobs across 7 days. One job was as an agency worker in a long term placement at a local big employer. The other job was as a weekend sales assistant in a very well-known budget retailer. Back in early 2019 I was also really struggling in my relationship with my boyfriend of 8 years.

Now I have the one semi secure job. Around about this time last year the role I was working through an agency became available to apply for as an 18 month contract. I applied and was successful, so know I have an annual salary, not an hourly one. I have better annual leave. I have more money. I have had it confirmed that my contract is being extended to July 2021, when it was due to finish this November. There are talks that there will soon be higher grade positions to apply for in my team, which I definitely will do.

This better job security (and higher pay) meant I could leave the weekend job that had steadily over time been draining my energy. Sometimes I think about returning in order to increase my net worth quicker, but I don’t think it’s worth the time sacrifice anymore.

My struggling relationship ended. In the end it turned out my ex and I had been holding on for longer than we knew was right because neither of us wanted to hurt the other people. We cared about each other too much. In what I guess is unusual for the average person I remain best friends with my ex. In a way I have to as I still currently live with him in what is thankfully a two bedroom flat. My ex is involved in a new relationship. I am still single as I have enough to occupy my time, though I did try dating.

My debt stands at £900 and it is on track to be cleared within this year. I’m aiming to pay off about £150 a month meaning it should be finished by late September. Normally I would be extremely excited, but in light of the concerns of Covid-19 it seems a little ill taste to be happy, though I guess that is a bit of a silly attitude to have.

One other important news to update you with is on December 31st 2019 my Dad had a stroke. I was lucky, he was treated immediately as he was at work when it happened. He survived. The truth is his speech is likely to never return to the way it was pre stroke, but we can still communicate with him. I was due to see him again this week, but Covid-19 changed my plans.

For the most part I can say for the first time in my life I am doing fine. My debt is manageable. I am saving. I have relative job security. My mental health is dormant. I am actually blissfully happy. It is just so sad that there is so much going on in the world at the moment.

I don’t want to be all ‘new start, new me’. It is just that I’ve had time to reflect on what I want to do, and posting on here is important to me again. I want to chronicle the last part of my journey in the same way that I used to chronicle the middle part of it, when part of me never thought the end would be in sight.

I’ll be back again.

Published by flodebtfreediary

Hello, I write about food, debt, saving money, mental health and social anxiety.

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