I have been ill since Tuesday, as in called in sick for work ill. Something I haven’t done for nearly 8 weeks, which I was feeling so proud of. That’s not to say I haven’t been ill during that time, because I have. I had a cold, a real humdinger of one. Then there were …
Tag Archives: anxiety
I Don’t Care (In a Good Way)
I am pretty sure someone I work with doesn’t like me. He has seemed a bit off with me for a while. The old Flo would have been agonising over this. The old Flo would have been crawling the walls with worry and anxiety. I would be going over and over again every exchange we …
I Have No Mouth and I Must Scream
(By the way you should totally read the short story the title of this post comes from, but I must warn you, it is a brilliant story, but it is also one of the most depressing things you will ever read) Today was not a good day. I was overcome with despair. I haven’t been …
I have the self esteem of a grape, easily crushed
Today I had it confirmed that my contract isn’t going to be extended. I left work early to focus on a job application, but my heart isn’t in it. I have lost all confidence in my abilities to work. I said to the boy ‘See, I told you I’d lose my job, you didn’t believe …
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Status: Anxiety
It had to happen sooner or later. I have had a day off work ill. It has been 7 weeks since I returned to work after a 28 day absence due to my anxiety and stress levels. In all honesty I haven’t been in the best of health in those 7 weeks. Just one week …
I am Normal again
I have just returned from a night out seeing friends, this involved travelling to a different city and then getting a late night train back home. The boy and I then had to walk through the town centre, late at night, on a Saturday. Here’s the thing, in the past, that would have freaked me …
Do Not Go Gentle Into That Good Night
I am prepared to fight for the life I deserve. I am prepared to say I deserve a good life. I am prepared to anticipate this good life. You could say I am prepared.
Small Life
I used to dream big. I had confidence that everything would work out for me. I was going to travel the world, be a huge success, have a wild social life, get married, live in a beautiful house and have 5 children. Naturally things change. My dreams are smaller now. I will take being able …
Say What?!
So….. Today after a 30 day absence I returned to work. And…… It was fine, better than fine, it was like a new fresh beginning. My bosses and colleagues were wonderful. I had to face the truth at long last. That I am, or was, utterly paranoid. No one was out to get me. No …
Let’s Not Get Too Excited 2
Further developments. I have been reading a book from the local Library called ‘Mad Diet’ by Suzanne Lockhart, and in case you can’t tell from the title it’s about what to do if you are both mad and fat. (Like me). She talks about how depression can be linked to deficiencies in certain vitamins and …
