It’s All Downhill From Here

Summer Solstice. The longest day of the year. The end of next week marks the halfway point of the year. It’s all downhill from here. BUT, the phrase has two meanings. And they contradict each other. In one way you can say that it means things are going to get worse. On the other hand […]

The Morning After The Night Before

The alarm said 4:30am. There is a great play by Sarah Kane called 4.48 Pychosis, which is about how her only moments of clarity in a 24 hour onslaught of poor mental health would come at 4.48 in the morning. I am a deep sleeper, but 4.30 am has become my new waking up time […]

I Don’t Believe In Being Brave

Menswear are a 90’s Brit Pop band. Some may argue that history has been unkind to them. Others will say that they don’t deserve kindness, since they were essentially a manufactured guitar band with an emphasis on the ‘pop’ part of Brit Pop, arranged for the members good looks and rumour has it they were […]

I am not Hamlet

I first learnt the definition of the word ‘procrastination’ when I was at college studying Hamlet on my English Literature course. Hamlet is about many things, but procrastination is one of the big themes in the play. Hamlet is procrastinating about what to do, whether to avenge his Father’s murder, whether to kill Claudius and […]

I feel elated

I had the day off work today and I went to the Doctor’s to discuss being referred to the Mental Health service here to be checked for Borderline Personality Disorder. We had a lovely chat, but my Doctor was very keen to stress that diagnosis can take years, it can totally depend on who sees […]

I do the best impression of myself

I need money. Due to basically spending all of the month’s food budget already, we have had to increase the budget by £50, and to be honest we have admitted defeat, and the new monthly food budget for the rest of the year will be £250. This means I had to find a way to front my £25 […]