(By the way you should totally read the short story the title of this post comes from, but I must warn you, it is a brilliant story, but it is also one of the most depressing things you will ever read) Today was not a good day. I was overcome with despair. I haven’t been […]
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Status: Anxiety
It had to happen sooner or later. I have had a day off work ill. It has been 7 weeks since I returned to work after a 28 day absence due to my anxiety and stress levels. In all honesty I haven’t been in the best of health in those 7 weeks. Just one week […]
I am Normal again
I have just returned from a night out seeing friends, this involved travelling to a different city and then getting a late night train back home. The boy and I then had to walk through the town centre, late at night, on a Saturday. Here’s the thing, in the past, that would have freaked me […]
Small Life
I used to dream big. I had confidence that everything would work out for me. I was going to travel the world, be a huge success, have a wild social life, get married, live in a beautiful house and have 5 children. Naturally things change. My dreams are smaller now. I will take being able […]
Say What?!
So….. Today after a 30 day absence I returned to work. And…… It was fine, better than fine, it was like a new fresh beginning. My bosses and colleagues were wonderful. I had to face the truth at long last. That I am, or was, utterly paranoid. No one was out to get me. No […]
Let’s Not Get Too Excited 2
Further developments. I have been reading a book from the local Library called ‘Mad Diet’ by Suzanne Lockhart, and in case you can’t tell from the title it’s about what to do if you are both mad and fat. (Like me). She talks about how depression can be linked to deficiencies in certain vitamins and […]
Let’s Not Get Too Excited
I had my counselling session and as I was walking home an interesting thing happened. I was about to turn round a bend tightly, and there were people heading in my direction and people walking in a different direction, but we were all going to cross paths. Which we did, and I had to do […]
Choose Life 2
I was innocently reading Stewart Lee’s article in The Guardian today and he made a comment about someone he knew passing away in 2007 and it made me think about how they wouldn’t have seen all the terrible things that have happened in the world since then. But, I knew then that no matter how […]
Back in My Dark State of Mind
Yesterday the boy and I went out with friends to say goodbye to one of our old drinking haunts in the city we all went to University at as it was moving location. All was going fine, we had a seat for each of us at a big table, we arrived early, there weren’t many […]
The Big Issues
The thing about my anxiety was it was very much rooted in the everyday, the small things of life, my narrow view of focus on the world. Such as my personal finances, losing weight, caring for my friends and family. But as the world turns I am finding that along with worrying about everything in […]
